Chapter 2- Diagnoses
Footprints in the Sand
One night I dreamed a dream.
As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and one to my Lord.
After the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
There was only one set of footprints.
This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it.
“Lord, during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life,
There was only one set of footprints.
I don’t understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me.”
He whispered, “My precious child, during your trials and testings,
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you.”
by- Mary Stevenson
As much as I want to say everything about my traumatic brain injury is over and done with I cannot. Not a single day goes by that I have to ask, “why me?” Should I look at this event as a blessing or curse? I know some might think that this is blasphemy for my actions while others think that this is a blessing in disguise. There are days when I like to think that yes I can do this but there are many other days when I just want to throw in the towel.
Not every day is a Sunday. There is no deeper truth than this. I did not write that my accident took place on a Wednesday, but the randomness of all that meant it could well have been a Sunday. Funny, you might think, but to be able to sit here now and write this after going through what I had endured, perhaps, I should allow a corny moment or two. Chapter two was written about my accident and journey through the hospital.
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
It was a usual Wednesday night snowmobile trip with the guys: Dad, Chad, Ryan, John Corwin senior, Joe Wilke, and Uncle Paul.
“At 4:34 pm I was crossing Highway 41 on a snowmobile what I was hit by a pickup truck. The truck hit the front of the sled and then the mirror knocked my helmet off. I suffered severe head trauma. I was stabilized at Bay Area Medical Center in Marinette, Wisconsin. I was then flown to St. Vincent Hospital in Green Bay, on the Eagle III flight for life.”
The doctors found from my computed tomography (CT) scan a one centimeter of abnormality high attenuation (e.g., the strength of bleeding) in the anterior lateral right basal ganglia likely representing a localized intracranial hemorrhage related to the recent trauma. There was a less than a five millimeter focus of increased attenuation of the deep white matter and left parietal occipital region. There are several areas of increased attenuation in the white matter. The blood spots were widely scattered throughout my brain. That may be an artifactual or may represent other tiny sheer injuries. There was no evidence of subdural epidural hematoma, skull fracture, or any amount of mucosal thickening of the left maxillary sinus, but no fluids had been seen in the sphenoid sinuses. Along with all of that there was extracranial soft tissue swelling on the left parietal region. There was some high density in the atrium of the left lateral ventricle probably representing left lateral intraventricular hemorrhage. The doctors found evidence of contusion left extracranial soft tissues with consistent with localized hemorrhage on the anterior lateral right basal ganglia. After suffering an injury the doctors examine my entire body for injuries due to the accident.
The chest exam showed the endotracheal to be in good position above the carina. The orogastric tube was in place. The heart and mediastinum showed no abnormalities on a supine chest view with my lungs appeared clear with no pleural effusion or pneumothorax. There was no fracture or other osseous in my pelvis, lumbar, and thoracic.
I was diagnosed with traumatic brain injury and possible spinal cord injuries with internal injuries and broken bones had been ruled out; the three inch gash on my head was stapled shut. After several computed tomography (CT) scans, spinal cord injury was not likely. I was put into a drug induced coma.